My episode, about two weeks ago, when I stopped taking Tarceva, my magic pill, for several days has made me somewhat anxious about my cancer. Since that event brought excruciating pain, I can only imagine what things will be like when the pill stops working. Will they be able to control that amount of pain? What will my life be like when everything revolves around the pain? Will my positive attitude and courage evaporate?

It’s a scary thought and one that I don’t want to dwell on, but the reality is that there is a monster inside me which is under control right now. But when that monster is unleashed. . .